There are some nights when I have the same dreams over and over again and it scares me. There are some special nights, when I saw something in my dreams and it happened in real life, most of them are tragedy. There are some night, when I had a dream about people I love dearly and I just wanna go back to sleep and dream about it again.
There are times in my life when I wanna be a doctor. Then, it changed to be a politician. Then, it changed to be an actress. Then, it changed to be a president.
There are times in my life when I want to marry Bon Jovi, and then it changed to Tom Cruise, then it changed to Brad Pitt. (What the heck?!?!)
There are times when I want to go to a specific school and it came true. I dream to go to a specific country and it happened. I dream to marry a specific man and it came true. Yippeee..
But, there are times when I know I can do it and turns out I couldn't. There are times when I tried so hard and I failed. There are times when I work so hard for it and I did not get it. There are times when I set my goals and I did not make it on time.
I have always been a goal oriented person since I was a kid. If I set my mind into it, I will do it and when I do it, I would do it perfect. It is in my nature to do well, pay attention to the details and make it work.
What happened to you when your dreams turns into nightmares? What happened when your sweet hope turns sour? What happened when you lost your faith?
Somehow, I know that there is a God. But the thought of "how could He let this happened to me?" is constantly inside my head. I am not blaming God completely for everything that goes wrong in this world and my life in this case. I guess, it is in my human nature to play the blame game, because it is hard to blame ourselves when we know we tried the best we could. Maybe it was not our faults, maybe it is the world against us, or maybe the world is too busy to even pay attention to us?
Failure is not an option! Who the heck wants to fail? nobody. Failure has never been an option, failure is the result that we we don't like to get but yet it showed up a lot in our lifetime.
Failure doesn't mean the end of it, even though it is for some of us. Failure means we need to keep fighting. Failure means we need to look deeper and find what we did wrong and correct it the next time. Failure means we need to look to another option to make it work. Failure means try again.
But, sometimes it is too hard to even think of it. Sometimes we give up on us. We give in to our weaknesses.
I hate when people calls me "hopeless" because it sounds so pathetic. Hopeless makes me feel like as if I don't believe in God, and I do. It bothers me that it bothers me. Even though so many times I do feel hopeless. Not because I don't believe in God anymore, but because I am not sure I can do it anymore. I don't know how God operates anymore. Some people tried so hard and receive less and some people don't even work and make it more. I am talking about money. And the worst part is that the "not working" people doesn't ever try to earn it, they just get it so easily, while we have to earn it so hard. It is just unfair.
I gave up dream a couple of years ago when I saw all my dreams falls apart and crushed into pieces. I even think I am depressed LOL. But, when I look back and thinking what did I do wrong, I could not see anything wrong. I mean, I do made mistakes, but I moved on.
When everything falls apart, it won't be pretty. But we could still build something new. Picking up the pieces is not a fun thing to do, but building something new is a fun thing to do, well at least for me.
Sometimes life throws a lot of things all at once and we have to choose between a dream or a reality. We often chose a dream over a reality and at the end, we ended up hurting ourselves or crushed. Because sometimes dreams are made to remain dreams, when you wake up, you have to get up and live your real life. But, when we chose dream and it is not working out in our real life, maybe we should stop dreaming about it and start living it.
When we dream about something, it is up to us to make it a reality or nightmares. I have a lot of dreams but, many times, I don't have the tools to make it work. I have a lot of dreams but so many times I let myself down because I don't have the confidence I need to make it work. I have a lot of dreams that I gained, I lost some, I crushed some, and some is not even worth to dream about.
Your dream will remain a dream if you do nothing about it and your dream will remain a nightmares if you keep dreaming the same thing over and over again.Your dream will be a reality if you set your mind and work toward it. Your dream is not a failure, even when your result says so. Your dream is yours, failure can't take it away from you, unless you let them go.
There are times in my life when I wanna be a doctor. Then, it changed to be a politician. Then, it changed to be an actress. Then, it changed to be a president.
There are times in my life when I want to marry Bon Jovi, and then it changed to Tom Cruise, then it changed to Brad Pitt. (What the heck?!?!)
There are times when I want to go to a specific school and it came true. I dream to go to a specific country and it happened. I dream to marry a specific man and it came true. Yippeee..
But, there are times when I know I can do it and turns out I couldn't. There are times when I tried so hard and I failed. There are times when I work so hard for it and I did not get it. There are times when I set my goals and I did not make it on time.
Have you ever lost your dreams? I am not talking about dreams when you were sleeping, or day dreaming about become a Princess or a Rock Star's wife. I am talking about something that you want to gain, your desire, your goal, your inspiration, your dream.
I have always been a goal oriented person since I was a kid. If I set my mind into it, I will do it and when I do it, I would do it perfect. It is in my nature to do well, pay attention to the details and make it work.
What happened to you when your dreams turns into nightmares? What happened when your sweet hope turns sour? What happened when you lost your faith?
Somehow, I know that there is a God. But the thought of "how could He let this happened to me?" is constantly inside my head. I am not blaming God completely for everything that goes wrong in this world and my life in this case. I guess, it is in my human nature to play the blame game, because it is hard to blame ourselves when we know we tried the best we could. Maybe it was not our faults, maybe it is the world against us, or maybe the world is too busy to even pay attention to us?
Failure is not an option! Who the heck wants to fail? nobody. Failure has never been an option, failure is the result that we we don't like to get but yet it showed up a lot in our lifetime.
Failure doesn't mean the end of it, even though it is for some of us. Failure means we need to keep fighting. Failure means we need to look deeper and find what we did wrong and correct it the next time. Failure means we need to look to another option to make it work. Failure means try again.
But, sometimes it is too hard to even think of it. Sometimes we give up on us. We give in to our weaknesses.
I hate when people calls me "hopeless" because it sounds so pathetic. Hopeless makes me feel like as if I don't believe in God, and I do. It bothers me that it bothers me. Even though so many times I do feel hopeless. Not because I don't believe in God anymore, but because I am not sure I can do it anymore. I don't know how God operates anymore. Some people tried so hard and receive less and some people don't even work and make it more. I am talking about money. And the worst part is that the "not working" people doesn't ever try to earn it, they just get it so easily, while we have to earn it so hard. It is just unfair.
I gave up dream a couple of years ago when I saw all my dreams falls apart and crushed into pieces. I even think I am depressed LOL. But, when I look back and thinking what did I do wrong, I could not see anything wrong. I mean, I do made mistakes, but I moved on.
When everything falls apart, it won't be pretty. But we could still build something new. Picking up the pieces is not a fun thing to do, but building something new is a fun thing to do, well at least for me.
Sometimes life throws a lot of things all at once and we have to choose between a dream or a reality. We often chose a dream over a reality and at the end, we ended up hurting ourselves or crushed. Because sometimes dreams are made to remain dreams, when you wake up, you have to get up and live your real life. But, when we chose dream and it is not working out in our real life, maybe we should stop dreaming about it and start living it.
When we dream about something, it is up to us to make it a reality or nightmares. I have a lot of dreams but, many times, I don't have the tools to make it work. I have a lot of dreams but so many times I let myself down because I don't have the confidence I need to make it work. I have a lot of dreams that I gained, I lost some, I crushed some, and some is not even worth to dream about.
Your dream will remain a dream if you do nothing about it and your dream will remain a nightmares if you keep dreaming the same thing over and over again.Your dream will be a reality if you set your mind and work toward it. Your dream is not a failure, even when your result says so. Your dream is yours, failure can't take it away from you, unless you let them go.
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xoxo,
Lindsay
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