"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing"
Katy Perry has her own way to describe the meaning of her songs and I think all of us could relate to a song with many translations into our own life.
There are times in my life when I feel like the words on that song!
My "translation" of that song is that I feel alone, lonely, under appreciated, lost, cannot breath and nobody cares to help out or to at least understand my situation.
Have you ever feel like that in your life?
You feel like life is sometimes required too much out of you and you are drained;
physically, mentally and spiritually.
You feel like there is nothing left to offer for life, but life keep asking you to give more of you.
What else do you want from me, life?
I have given you everything!
Have you ever feel like you are drowning, trying to catch your breath and when you finally could breath again, there is another wave came at your way, slapped you hard and you drowned again,
fighting to survive the life, trying to find a way to breath again.
Trapped, seemed like there is no way out, nobody cares, and problems just keep adding up.
Well, you are not alone because I have my moments like that and in fact, all of us have our moments like that in life.
The problems might not be the same, but the feeling is the same.
We all have our own "luggage" in life!
May it be from our past to present life that will affected our future.
May it be from our parents, surrounding or ourselves.
May it be a temporary ones or a permanent ones.
May it be important, less important, priority, less priority.
But, we still carry that luggage either way.
There are things that we could easily unpack from that luggage, but there are things that still need our cares or attention and therefore we could not unpack it, we must carry it, because we have no other choice.
Examples?
Examples?
Debts that needed to be paid,
Children that needed to be taken care of until they could do it themselves,
Marital problems that needed help,
Health problems that needed your attention,
Piles of work that needed to be finished on a certain due date,
Family member that needed your help because they are unable to survive without your help,
Traumas from death, abusive relationship, mistreated,
etc.
My point is that we all have our own struggling, problem and luggage in life.
Some might have more than others, whether we are responsible for those problems or not, but we must face those problems regardless what or who caused it.
Feels overwhelmed?
Try to unload ALL of your luggage,
write it down,
sort it according to its priority (important, less important).
Then,
sort it according to what you could do by yourself and which one that you needed other people's help.
Ask for others to help you out,
you do not have to do it alone (but if you are literally alone, try to do it one by one according to its level of priority).
Sometimes you just need to unpack the less important luggage,
You need to prioritize your life.
Stop beating yourself up trying to save everyone all at once and neglected yourself and your own family (spouse-children).
Stop thinking that you could do it all by yourself when you have option to share it with others who are involved in it.
Throw away things that are no longer important in your life, scratched it off your list, unpack it from your luggage.
Life's burdens are no joke!
People are fighting with each other, killing each other and even killing themselves because they could not handle it anymore.
The pain, the problems, the "seemed to have no way out" moment, the depression, the needs are way too hard, too much to handle.
You have none left to fulfilled the needs, the expectation from everyone (esp. the loved ones) that you must solve it when you actually could not do it anymore, the pressure are just way too much to handle.
Many people says that those who ended their life are cowards and the list goes on, but they knew nothing about this person. It is easier to say those things because you have an army to help you out when you have problems, you sit on top of gold, or your problems are not as hard as the person who chose to ended his life.
Do you know what it takes to end your own life? Everything!
They found no help, no love, no hope from everyone and everything and therefore death seemed to be a quick way out to ease the pain, to end the problems.
Sadly, it is not.
:(
People who killed themselves left a never ending sadness to their loved ones, who always wondering why they never ask for their help?
The never ending of "Why" and the regret of what could have happened had that person asked for their help/support.
There is always hope behind every crisis,
There is always a way out,
There is always someone who is willing to help you out!
Please do not kill yourself,
Because though you are broken, you are still precious and there is always someone who loves you.
Life could be overwhelming but do not give up!
If you think you cannot take it anymore and needs someone to talk to, please check out these websites:
CALL:
1-800-784-2433
1-800-273-8255
1-800-799-4889 (Deaf Hotline)
My prayers and love for you today as you read my post and thinking that you are alone, but I promise you that you are not alone.
Knowing that you are stronger, able and precious.
You deserve to live a good life,
so please do not take that away from yourself.
You do not know what tomorrow holds for you.
Giving up is not an answer!
My prayers for you right now is that God will give you the hope that you need,
the way out,
the people to help you out,
the strength to empowered yourself to fight back,
His love to remind yourself that you are worthy and too precious.
I may not have all the answers for you,
Am I problems free? nope and so are the rest of the human population.
We all have problems,
some are even harder than we thought because they do not show it in their everyday lives.
Just because people are smiling or put cool statuses and pictures on Facebook or Twitter (lol), does not mean their lives are problems free.
Just because they seemed happy does not mean that they do not have problems in life.
People only shows what they want the world to see them, not what really is going on in their lives.
But, if we involved in helping others in need, we started to see that we are not alone buried with problems, other people have it harder than us.
Sometimes what we need is other people to help us with our problem, to defined our problem, to open our eyes up to see that we can do it, it is not that bad and even if it is that bad, we will be fine because they has proved it by their own living testimony.
Community,
especially those with the same problems really helps us understand that we are not alone. Sometimes we must stop looking "up" and starting to look around us or below us to understand that we are not the only one living this nightmare, others has their own and there are many who has worst situation than ours.
especially those with the same problems really helps us understand that we are not alone. Sometimes we must stop looking "up" and starting to look around us or below us to understand that we are not the only one living this nightmare, others has their own and there are many who has worst situation than ours.
Find your community!
First, you must defined your problems then you seek help.
What do you want in life, set a goal, then go from there.
Little by little, but moving forward!
"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."
Psalm 34:18
"Our soul waits for the Lord; he is our help and our shield."
Psalm 33:20
“Along the way you might fall down, sometimes in life, you might fall down and can’t find the strength to get back up, do you think you have hope?
Because I tell you, I’m down here and I have no arms and no legs.
It should be impossible for me to get up, but it’s not”
xoxo,
Lindsay
